going nut.

I am being me?and i am me.I dress on my own taste,I choose on my own decision,and I speak the way I speak.I hold to my principes and I kill people who against it, if only I should.What else?tell me.My haters or friends, judge me please? :)Errr,I don't know why.maybe i'm happy with my life now, so I don't think I need to switch it with other people.Like I've said before,I love being me and I am grateful that I am me,not others.Why should I leave all these things to live in others' lives right? that's my life and my right.I realized then, whenever we feel negative about ourselves,how awful we think we are.screw me.!

sep ngotok dorm 6,Thanks for the memories,I keep thinking about them till now,I swear.and now i kept jealous with people who said their school awesome and the best one.plus,their 'GEMPAK' result for final exam.JEALOUS.I can't believe that November is coming to an end.i getting older and older.SPM!wait for me!but,i'm not ready for it,i swear.i should improve my result and my studies.i admit that i never serious when its come to study.even i'm in a serious situation,there is something make me discouraged.i don't know why.maybe i think there's no one to push me.i mean someone who keep give advice and spirit.i'm just a LIFELESS for one year.can you imagine that?i never separate with my lovely mom who is always inspires me.when i living in hostel,no more pot pet pot pet from my umi.When it comes to my umi,there are so many words to describe her! I could spend an hour or more just to talk about her..SHE IS MY SUPERWOMAN FOREVER.

stop rambling amna.grr,rambling?i don't think so.i just expressing my feeling.hey,practice makes perfect,right?just ignore my lousy grammar.haha.That's all for today, see you in next post, perhaps? Bye all! Happy holiday! :)ready for class tuition tomorrow.i will tell you about my resolution for 2011 in the next post.there are many people participate for any 

contest in FB.so,Good Luck.!

with love,

amna

like rain and rainbow.

First of all, congrats to all PMR candidates who had finished their tests 2 weeks ago.. right?and PMR students of SMK bachok,they're enjoying their holiday to KL right now.what a happy life laa.*jealous.Yeah, I'm happy for them because they don't need to face the boring textbooks anymore. they absolutely  have fun 24/7 like crazy people, I know lah because I've experienced that last year. I even could finish reading those novels 2 weeks after PMR okay? *proud face* Just to show that they've a lot of time to do anything after PMR. Its FINALLY OVER.and for of course they loved the smell of freedom.but,keep praying for the best results.

Since October gave my family a lot of trouble,i don't get any inspiration at all.I believe"setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya" when my lovely mom told me that our house have been invaded by the stupid and moron robbers,I'm lost and speechless.we can't handle this situation.its fate and as a Muslims,we should 'REDHA' and everything happened in a blink of an eye.we're absolutely not in the pipe line.who knows..

وَمَكَرُوا وَمَكَرَ اللَّهُ وَاللَّهُ خَيْرُ الْمَاكِرِينَ

Surah Al 'Imran: Ayat 54

Maksud: Dan orang-orang itupun merancangkan tipu daya, dan Allah pula membalas tipu daya (mereka); dan (ingatlah), Allah sebijak-bijak yang membalas  tipu daya"

  

beliau menyimpulkan makna yang tersirat daripada ayat yang disebutkan itu. Manusia dan Allah sama-sama mempunyai perancangan. Akan tetapi, perancangan Allah adalah yang teragung. Sesungguhnya, DIA Maha Mengetahui setiap apa yang berlaku dan yang bakal berlaku.

i'm not  in the right frame of mind for a complex situation.when i called her before i rushed to the school,she told me slowly about everything happened while crying and it made me felt.awhhhh!it was terrible and Ya ALLAh for the first word.It was killing my heart and beating like @#%*.unfortunately,i was sitting for english paper.What the hell.I can't do the best but i really hope the best one.and i'm sure everything went wrong.it was drive me crazy.i worried so much that time and it was the best word to describe about the situation.there's trouble brewing.!but,i stick to these words..

" Kadang-kadang ALLAH sembunyikan matahari, DIA datangkan hujan dan petir. Kita bersedih dan tertanya tanya ke mana hilangnya matahari, rupa-rupanya Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi yang indah. " ALLAH berikan kita kesusahan dan rintangan sebab DIA nak berikan kesenangan sekiranya kita tabah dan terus berusaha.."

"Every cloud has a silver lining"

sometimes i feel things changing too fast. I'm growing up and everything's change.I wish I could rewind the time and be a silly kid again because  life's now full of dramas and dilemmas. Sometimes I feel tired to face them.Sorry peeps 'cause you all have to read this crap.i want to prove to some people who thinks my life is perfect. Not as perfect as you think.there are pros and contras in my life. Everybody has it. Just be grateful with what you have and what you have faced because everything happen for  a reason.lead a life with a smile because you're the main character in your life.

foot note:One burden is not pass succesfully.i still have some papers more.So, tawakkal to Allah is the best.Pray for me peeps..i know i have a lousy grammar but practice makes perfect.right? 

with love,

amna

entri tengah malam jumaat.

entri sahaja menakutkan.agak spooky.spooky laa sangat..malam malam nie masih jugak diri ini nak berblogging.bukan apa,dah lama tak melalut atau meluahkan isi hati kat sini.so,melepaskan rindu yang terpendam laa nie.tak gitu,Joyah?kejealousan meresapi urat saraf apabila tengok orang hapdate blog tiap-tiap detik,minggu dan hari.macam wow,,!bestnya ko dapat hapdate tiap-tiap minggu.act,tak ade ape pon nak diluah.tapi aku ade satu statement pasal kejadian sekeliling.betol laah kata Zizan aka Ucuk dalam citer Hantu Bonceng,"Pengalaman mendewasakan kita."


straight to the point laah,ade seorang makhluk nie dia macam kepoh citer itu ini kat kawan-kawan dia pasal KAWAN dia jugak.even,dia sendiri tak tahu samaada citer tu betul atau tidak.katakan kalau citer yang kau hebohkan tu fake,tak ke KESIAN giler kat kawan kau tuh.so,janganlah nak memandai..siasat dulu betul atau tidak hal yang kau kepohkan tuh.Jangan main bedall jer.kalau kau makan makanan yang shit,boleh kau muntahkan balik.tapi kalau kau minum racun,ade kau hidup balik?memang laah kawan kau tu ada kekurangan.biasa laa manusia..tak lari daripada kesilapan and kau pun tahu kan Nobody Perfect.even kau atau aku pon tak sempurna.apa salahnya kau kita perbetulkan dirinya.bukannya salah kan?daripada kau terus citer kat belakang blaa blaa tentang keburukannya,why not kau betulkan dia secara perlahan-lahan.lain manusia lain ragamnya.mungkin ade hikmah disebaliknya.


so,jangan mudah menuding "kaki" ke arah orang lain sewenang-wenangnya.tengok diri sendiri dulu laah baru boleh kau nak judge orang tahap gaban.Dia Kawan Kau.masa kau bergelak sakan dengan orang lain,tinggalkan dia sorang sorang duduk terperuk kat dinding,masa kau kidding dengan kawan-kawan "hebat" kau tuh seolah olah dia tak wujud.Dia menderita kau tahu.sakit dia tak semua tahu.pedih dia simpan sorang sorang.memang orang menjauhinya sebab dia macam tuh,tapi kita?sedar laah..jangan jauhkan yang sudah dekat.Perangai boleh diubah dan jangan laah terlalu mendongak ke langit sebab ada yang menyebelahi dirimu even ada lagi orang yang lebih terluka daripada kau.kau ramai kawan.takpe.tapi dia?aku cuma kesiankan hubungan persahabatan yang sudah lama terjalin.jangan leraikannya sebab onar yang mendatang.bila kawan korang dah takde,baru korang rasa menyesal.bila dia ade,korang sia-sia kan dia.yang dah ada di depan mata,tak dihargai.yang jauh jugak diingati.korang boleh ubah apa yang perlu diubah.masing-masing ada menyimpan luka tersendiri.apa salahnya kalau korang ubatkan dengan doa.Doa sebagai seorang sahabat :)

gambar kasi gegar.haha

credit to:za annastasya

nota kaki:kisah nie takde berkaitan dengan yang masih hidup ataupun yang sudah mati.

               harap maklum. 

with love,

amna